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Bicycles Rule
May 13, 2008, 10:10 am
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Bike riding. It’s like the cool thing to do. It’s been something I’ve been enjoying sooo much lately. I think I would’ve had a lot more sanity in Korea if I bought a stinking bike. Looking back, I can’t believe that I didn’t with all the surrounding mountains and rivers nearby…but I guess the desire is really being played out now.

As of late- oh how I have come to LOVE riding downtown! Not just the act of riding but also going with friends. We went out last night and rode around Bricktown and the trails just south of it- I had no idea that there were huge sculptures and mini-falls there– I look forward to summertime with the cool of the evening!

Not only am I riding, but I came to find out that my mother has been recently learning how to ride a bike! She never did when we were kids- there was always some kind of fear associated with riding, but she finally decided to take up my dad’s offer of learning. Now they ride everyday. I admire them so much…soooo cute! yes. I want to be like them when I grow up.

They went for a ride Mother’s day morning to a park nearby. They brought along some fruit and got to enjoy the lovely garden and ducks- I told my mom how romantic that was, and she said that my father’s intention wasn’t to be romantic- how he doesn’t even know the meaning of the word :P again, too cute. Mommy plans to ride her bike to work! Talk about awesome news!



Revival

Isaiah 61- about freedom to the prisoners– I’ve been hearing many people refer to the church. The religious system. Bound by a system by who they are in God.

Back in January, Michael Ratliff gave a prophecy about killing out the religiousness:

Luke 4:18 says, “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me”.
The Spirit of the Lord is on this group. The Lord is using this group to kill out a lot of religiousness. Some of you will have dreams about it. The Lord is situating you in front of the religious.
You will bring life where there has been death.
You will be hated without cause.
You will offend the religious.
The Spirit of the Lord is upon you and has given you life and death is offended by the life you have.
As the Lord uses you, some of you will feel really inadequate, inferior, almost like rejection is about to get you but the Lord loves you. The stone that the builders rejected become the chief cornerstone. You are aligned with Jesus, the chief cornerstone. You will find yourselves on the other side of the equation. It may be hard as you will want to please man, look right and dress right. You won’t be able to get it right. The Lord is going to foil all your stuff, mess up all your stuff, make you clumsy so you can get some grace.
The Lord is delivering you from religious gymnastics.

There was also a prophecy of revival over OKC, much like the one in Pensacola and the Toronto blessing.

Graham Cooke said the following, listen church:

“You are your own revival. You don’t need to wait for anything. You need to learn how to live from the inside to the outside. Revival is not about thousand of people getting saved. That’s reformation.

Revival happens when you and I start living in the way that God wants us to live. You can’t revive something that’s never been alive.

So revival is not about unbelievers. Revival is about believers coming back to the place they should never have left. It’s about believers coming to live in the place, living the way that God intended them to live. And when that happens, you are your own revival.

Something flows out of you that starts to connect with humanity in a big way and nothing and no one can stop it. Because nothing can stop goodness..except fear.”

Which I want to continue talking about- how I previously operated much out of fear- this story illustrates my former life and current life- from the insecure to the unconditional love of Jesus. Ask anyone that knew me a year ago…particularly my family at Mars Hill church.

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Story about two brothers, and they’re talking and reliving things from the past.

One brother is insecure and inadequate. The other is really brash and out there. Both had their problems, reacted differently to things.

The guy who’s brash always wants to try things and is all over the place. The other guy is too insecure to ever think about doing anything or changing anything.

So, one day, the insecure guy is fed up and saying-
“Well, not everyone loves you, you know.” because that guy has had lots of girlfriends, and this guy has had one.

He goes on to say, “I remember that girl in school, you know the most beautiful girl in school. I’ve watched you talking to her one day, and being out there and doing all the stuff you do. And then you walked away, and she started laughing about you to her friend. You never knew.”

“Yeah I did. I knew that.”

“You did?”

“Yeah. I knew she was laughing at me. It’s not what you receive that makes you whole. It’s what you give out. See, I knew that I loved her, and no one could ever take that away from me. And it wasn’t what she gave me, it was what I gave her.”

And the brother who was weak and ineffective– you could see his whole heart just changing…because He lived closed off; His brother had lived open.

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Step up, spirit man! Govern my soul. Unconditional love. Jesus died to save our souls, and they need to be redeemed by the cross.

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Life Here…

The past two Saturdays at the Refuge were great with ShareFest & Serv-olution. I wanted to make sure that I got a picture of the east wall before it got painted over. Didn’t have a chance to take a picture of the band - all the work - Tim speaking.

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  • Praise God for deliverance! For the amazing story, ask Jose or Glenn.
  • A team from Nebraska arrived at the City Rescue Mission last week. They got to serve here for their missions assignment through the Master’s Commission program. Fourteen amazing people head back in the morning after breakfast tomorrow.


Part-Time Status

I don’t want my parents to read this post just yet…

I’ve officially told my supervisor and boss at work that I’m going to spend more time at the mission during the weekday. My Mondays and Fridays will be spent there in their discipleship program.

Scripture memorization, helping out in the afternoon classes and anything in-between will be my primary roles, but my main intention is to be more present and available. They specifically asked me if I wanted more responsibility, but I told them that I wanted to ease into it as I get more involved…



Bwa! You’re Old!
April 14, 2008, 9:08 am
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I love the contrast between my boss’s response to my newly acquired age and what the people at the mission say. My boss, continually taking note of my “utter state of singleness,” *gasp* exclaimed, “bwa! You’re old!” I simply smiled and excitedly told her that I am so young. So full of hopes and dreams.

If I were stuck in the mindset that she and many others believe, my thoughts would only be filled with regret and anxiety. This mindset was ever so familiar to me, as I have struggled with depression, hopelessness, and despair with my parents being constant reminders of my supposed decrepit state.

My mom used to FREAK OUT that I wasn’t either squirting out babies, on a serious career track, or in graduate school by the time I got my bachelor’s.

My dad used to question how I spent my time when I didn’t have a boyfriend, “successful” career, or as he said it, “wiggle my hips and booty.”

Again, God has freed me from that mentality. I love the freedom I have because God is outside of time.

The attitudes and perspectives that my friends at the mission inspire and bless me. Emerging from their shattered and broken past, they envision the many different ways that God can use their mess and their beautiful experiences for the glory of God.



The Irresistible Revolution
April 11, 2008, 11:29 am
Filed under: Asianness, Family, Life, Notes, Reflection

Apparently, everybody’s read this book but me. I’ve finally read through some of it, reminding me of the very things I was thinking and asking four years ago when I was struggling, questioning and seeking what life would look like outside of my parental unit’s decisions for my life. (you know, supposedly being “edumacated”…)

I remember people asking me what I’d do after college, and the only way I would respond was to live a life of community, simplicity, discipleship, and service. I was looking into a few discipleship programs to follow my four years of college… but those years didn’t quite turn out the way I expected it to (it never does, does it?)

So here are excerpts out of Shane Claiborne’s book that I never realized I was preaching to others…why life in the real world or the way of life as I knew it just did not make sense to me AT ALL, why I was so burnt out, reminded how love is the only answer, etc:

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One day we received a box of donations from one of the wealthy congregations. Written in marker on the cardboard box were the words, “For the homeless.” Excited, I opened it up, only to find the entire box filled with microwave popcorn. My first instinct was to laugh. We barely had electricity, much less a microwave, and popcorn wasn’t on the top of the needs list. My second instinct was to cry because of how far the church had become removed from the poor.

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I began to discover “the greater things.” It was not just miracles. I started to see that the miracles were an expression not so much of Jesus’ mighty power as of his love.

In fact, the power of miraculous spectacle was the temptation he faced in the desert- to turn stones to bread or to fling himself from the temple. But what has lasting significance were not the miracles themselves but Jesus’ love.

Jesus raised his friend Lazarus from the dead, and a few years later, Lazarus died again. Jesus healed the sick, but they eventually caught some other disease. He fed the thousands, and the next day they were hungry again. But we remember his love.

…I know miracles are real, story after story comes to mind. But beyond the miracles, what has lasting significance is love. We can do all sorts of miracles, but if we have not love, it is nothing.

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I had been doing a Bible study whose central premise was that rather than waiting around for God’s special plan for your life, you should just go find where God is at work and join in.

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Someday, perhaps we can even say those words that Ruth said to Naomi after years of partnership:

“Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried.” (Ruth 1:16-17)

And that’s when things get messy. When people begin moving beyond charity and toward justice and solidarity with the poor and oppressed, as Jesus did, they get in trouble. Once we are actually friends with folks in struggle, we start to ask why people are poor, which is never as popular as giving to charity.

One of my friends has a shirt marked with the words of late Catholic bishop Dom Helder Camara:

“When I fed the hungry, they called me a saint. When I asked why people are hungry, they called me a communist.”

Charity wins awards and applause, but joining the poor gets you killed. People do not get crucified for charity. People are crucified for living out a love that disrupts the social order, that calls forth a new world. People are not crucified for helping poor people. People are crucified for joining them.

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Sometimes people call those of us in our community radical. As I said before, if by radical we mean “root,” I think it is precisely the right word for what we are trying to do - get down to the roots of what it means to be Christian disciples. Most of the time, though, I think that if what we are doing seems radical, then that says more about the apathy of Western Christianity than about the true nature of our discipleship. And this is why “radical” has to be coupled with “ordinary.” Our way of life was typical in the days of the early Jesus movement.

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Honestly, the way of life we have chose often seems more natural than the alternative. The alternative- moving out and living in the suburbs - seems terribly sacrificial (or painfully empty). What must it be like not to have block parties or not to actually know the people around us?

There are times when I have been very frustrated with wealthy folks for hoarding their stuff. But now I know enough rich folks to know the loneliness that is all too familiar to many of them. I read a study comparing the health of a society with its economics, and one of the things it revealed is that wealthy countries like ours have the highest rates of depression, suicide, and loneliness.

We are the richest and most miserable people in the world. I feel sorry that so many of us have settled for a lonely world of independence and riches when we could all experience the fullness of life in community and interdependence.

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If our lives are easy, we must be doing something wrong. Mother Teresa also used to say,

“Following Jesus is simple, but not easy. Love until it hurts, and then love more.”

Dorothy Day of the Catholic worker movement understood this well. She said,

“Love is a harsh and dreadful thing to ask of us, but it is the only answer.”

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One of the best things communities like ours do is carve out a space for people to discern and redefine their vocations. Vocation comes from the same root as voice, denoting the hearing of a divine call. Beyond knowing that God has a purpose for our lives, most of us (especially non-Catholics) spend little energy seeking out vocation, especially in light of how the needs and sufferings of our neighbors might inform how we use our gifts for divine purposes.

There are plenty of people who are miserable in their jobs, for they have not listened to God’s call. And I would add there are many Christians who are not fulfilled in their spiritual lives because they have no sense of their gifts or purpose, and they just run to the mission field to save souls rather than transform lives and communities using their gifts and those of the people they live among. Both lead to emptiness and burnout.

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We have never really considered ourselves missionaries to the poor. Jesus was not simply a missionary to the poor. He was poor. Jesus was crucified not for helping poor people but for joining them. That is the Jesus we follow.

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A pastor who has been a long time supporter and friend of the Simple Way said,

“I used to think you all were missionaries bringing the gospel to your neighborhood, but now I see that it is in your neighborhood that you have learned the gospel, and that you are actually missionaries to the church.”



Latest Thoughts…

Too many thoughts in my head: living/praying in the Spirit, Graham Cooke, Dave Roberson, wondering why I’m living out in my flesh too many times and how much more empowered I would be in the spirit, Ann Cong of Kamp’s coming up to me to tell me that I’m a leader, awesome churches around here and the communities that surround it, parents being in Korea for the past week due to my grandfather passing away, my baby brother’s latest achievement, dropping down to part-time status so I can spend more time at the mission, my friend visiting tomorrow night for a few days, etc…

Sometimes, when I hear crazy amazing news about my younger brother, I can’t help but look at my own life and think I’m failing in many areas. I know there are “Jesus freaks” out there that will never get recognition for their time on earth, but there are also many that are favored by God & man for His advancements.

One of them is my younger brother, who recently found out that he’s the next brigade commander at the naval academy. What exactly is that? I had to google it :P, but I found an article that gave me a pretty good idea.

crazy. Considering that he took a year off to do mission work in Korea. He called me often to tell me how much he was struggling and how hard things were. I don’t know how he does it. I would’ve called it quits. But yeah. His life reminded me of the sermon I heard at Bridgeway concerning the life of Joseph.

Authority: servants in the hard places serving someone else’s vision. Suffering is always an opportunity for the presence of God to be revealed. Humility manifest -> serving people.



Chickasha Folk
April 9, 2008, 11:53 am
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I returned to the mission last night to see a bunch of things going on already! I took a closer look to find out that the group was from Chickasha! I was working the desk from 5-10, so I couldn’t play the piano for them, but I know they’ll be out here pretty regularly! So excited! They were planning on tonight as well, but it looks like the weather is a bit hectic…



Answered Prayers
April 7, 2008, 10:09 am
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The Refuge was in a recent newspaper article, front page of the Life Section I believe? awesome, awesome.

The tent has been pitched! God provides.

This past weekend, I was so excited to see people gathering under the tent in the fenced yard next to the Refuge. I can’t tell the tent story as well as Ryan Knol, but here’s what I remember:

Why have large groups of people been unable to assemble at the Refuge? Zoning issues and then some with the city. Although it was kind of disheartening, they couldn’t let a little thing like that stop them from ministering to people in the area on a regular basis. How could the problem be solved?

Ryan & Tim Ulrich considered the idea of pitching a tent. “No way… um.. let’s pray about it some more.” The scripture that God revealed to Tim came from Isaiah 54:2

“Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes.”

Tim was extremely encouraged and continued to pray, not knowing exactly how it would look like.

The very next day as they were standing on the corner of California & Shartel, they saw a man lurking around the Refuge, peering in the windows and knocking on the doors. Without hesitation, they walked up to the guy and asked if he needed anything.

Apparently, this man has been called by God to pitch a tent in the inner city. Equipped with a complete sound system, carpeted stage, he was looking to find a place to pitch it! woooo!



Family Realities
April 4, 2008, 8:32 am
Filed under: Family, Life, Reflection

My parents are on their way to Korea right now. I called my mom to find out she was landing in Atlanta because my parents were planning on visiting this weekend… but I’m glad that I got a hold of her before she left the country. Good thing she just bought a cell phone too. I didn’t get her message ’til late last night to find out that her father passed away. I don’t know if he was a believer, but I do know that my younger brother got a chance to share the gospel with him last year.

I would say that my grandfather lived a hard life. His first wife passed away when my mother was in high school. Towards the end of his life, I would say that the life revolved around him was like a soap opera– awful drama surrounding all the riches he accumulated in vain.

…my mother’s side of the family all grew up “Buddhist,” which is pretty much like growing up “Christian” here…claiming a religion and not really practicing it.

…my mom’s “religion” was studying. And study she did. There was no life outside of it.

…out of nine kids, my mother was my grandfather’s favorite. I don’t remember why… I just remember my mother mentioning it. I also remember there being a lot of guilt associated with the fact that she couldn’t take care of him the final years of his life.

…when I told my parents I would be helping people in Georgia or ___, they would ask why I wouldn’t help my own family, particularly my grandfather in Korea…especially in the area of sharing my faith. *sigh*